Hidden Behind The CurtiansA lie behind a smileJoy that's paper thinHope as fragile as a cloudThat disappears with windAnger reined in tightNever to be freeHidden behind a bright smileSo no one will ever seeA girl's friendly glanceHer heart icy coldForever lying to the worldGod she feels so oldHey joy is a maskHer smile is a lieI'm surprised they still believeMy friends, that girl is I
It Hasn't Changed at AllWhy do you keep on doing this to meWhy try to hide whats so plain to seeWhy still deny what we both know is trueYou still love me, and i still love youAt least, i though you felt the sameJust in the soft way you say my nameAnd how you hold me for a really long timeDeep in my heart i still feel like your mineYou say you'll protect me and keep me safeYou keep me warm with your tight embraceSo much time's passed, and yet nothings changedIt feels like you still love me the same
Stupid HeartI hate the fact that i still careI hate the fact that your still thereI hate my heart and what it knows is trueI'm still hopelessly in love with youI tried to forget you, i tried my bestFor some reason i thought you weren't like the restYou just had to go and prove me wrongAnd yet i still love you after so longI wish this could all just go awayI wish we still had one more dayI wish i didn't still love you soI wish you didn't want to go
9/11 RememberanceThis is for those who gave their livesAnd for those who unwillingly diedI salute your loss on this dayThe memory of you won't fade awayThe Twin Towers crashed and burnedAnd its a lesson most harshly learnedIts something our world wont soon forgetThose deathes are something we all regret
ContradictionI wanna give you a hug and squeeze you tightI wanna shove you away with all my mightI wanna hold you close and never let goI want you to suffer like i did soI want to give you things and show my loveI want lightening to strike you from up aboveI want you so badly i can barely breatheBut i won't take you cause i know you'd just leave
Ripped ApartYou took my heart, you took my soulIn their place there is a holeWhat once was bright now is dullLoving you took such a tollAnd even after you left me hereMy eyes still search to see if you're nearAnd against all logic, your still so dearThe power of feelings is something to fearYou don't care but i still doYou don't love me but i love youAnd there's nothing i can doI can't deny what i know is trueDamn my feelings, damn my heartI wish they were still in the darkThen maybe i could hide the markYou left when you ripped me apart
The Darkness InsideGo and hug the demon in you closetGo ahead and face your darknessDon't look to me when you start to chokeI don't have you antidoteeither accept it or die where you standI've taken mine so i don't give a damnI've already found my own little cureAnd now i am nothing more than a lureI'm the dollar bill tied to a stringI'm the teasing gust that gives your hopes wingBut sorry for you, just teasing it beLike i could ever trust you with meSo go and find your demons to faceAnd when you find them go and give chaseCatch them and kill them and eat their black lightThen come stand with me in the eternal light
Fool No MoreThis goes to show i am such a foolAnd my own heart is really very cruelOops, looks like i got played againAnd to think i thought i could actually winBut now i know the ropes of the gameNow i get to find my own hearts to maimSo thanks for showing me how it's playedJust take a look at this creature you've madeI think it's time for a change in the rulesNo more being such a weak-hearted foolI won't give what i'll take but i'll take what they giveThis is the way my new life shall be livedNo more returning the favor or being honest and fairThats for people with hearts not holes full of airSo thank you again for making me
Congrats To YouThis is horrible and i don't know what to doI can't believe i'm really losing youThen you said you still want to be friendsOh will the pain in my heart ever endHow can i bare to look you in the eyeYou broke my heart and i still don't know whyAnd one would think my feelings had cooledBut no, I still love you, god i am such a foolWhy does my heart secretly wish you were hereWhy do my eyes look to see if your nearEven after you cruelly shattered my heartIt seems, to my dismay, that you still hold a partSo this is the end, that's it, we're throughTo be honest i expected better of youWhen you said, I love you, i really
Simply ImpossibleTrying not to think about youIs like telling a cow to stop saying mooOr like telling a gamer to never gameIt's impossible, not to mention insaneSaying i don't wish you were hereIs like saying Europe is someplace nearIts just silly and I know it's not trueI can't help that I miss youTrying to put my feelings in wordsFrustrates me so much it's absurdTheres no comparison for what i feelAll I know is it's for you and it's real
Won't Stop Me NowThe future looms behind the black smokeAll i can do is pray i won't chokeI'm afraid but won't say it out loudMy fear hangs over me like a dark cloudBut even so, I'll still follow throughI'll keep the promises i made to youA little fear has never stopped me beforeIt won't keep me from the guy i adoreI'm not sure of everything right nowI know what but i still don't know howBut we'll find a way, and we'll pull throughI want to try because i'm falling for you
My Life Now BeginsMy skin is all clammyMy eyes have gone dimMy fingers are bonyI have been condemnedMy hairs falling outMy skin tone is grayMy heart is failingI'm living this dayI cannot speakMy mouth has gone dryI have no eyeballsSo I cannot cryMy corpse is rottingI have bugs in my skinMy body is dyingMy life now begins
I thought.....I truly thought you were my friendYou took me for one wild rideAnd now i must go and hideFor i think my heart has diedYou lied to me,broke my trustYou were never my real friendYou were in it for your own endBut that failed, and now i must mendYou never really wanted to stayThere was nothing in it for youIn the end,what could i do?You never believed id be trueSo you know what,just walk awayTurn the lights off so i can't seeLeave me in the dark where im supposed to beDoomed to stay for all eternity
They Did ThisMY body is going up in flamesMy soul is all i have left to claimThere's no light left to guide my pathThis nothingless place is the aftermathThe rain is fire, the snow is ashThe twisting river is a red gashIt flows with the blood of so many heartsTheir life was sucked out, now their all darkThey did this, the demons of oldThe ones who's hearts have all gone coldThey needed life, they needed bloodNow there's bodies sprawled in the mudThey took our souls late at nightSwallowed them whole, ate their lightThe only reason i survivedA demon child left me aliveHe burned my body, forgot my soulThe pain it caused took
FinallyI'm moving on, moving forwardMy hopes are up, shields are loweredI'm taking risks and making gamblesMy heart is whole,my worries in shamblesThe past is gone, my futures nearMy ambition leaves no room for fearTheres is much to do, so little timeTechnically i shouldn't be writing this rhymeThe present is my home, my lifeThe past was good, not just strifeI'm at ease with who i amSay what you will, i don't give a damnI've found peace deep in my soulBut, of course, things still take a tollLife's not easy, it never will beBut i know in the end, i'll still be me
Why can't they see?Feather light brushes from the wind in my hairGentle caresses from people who really aren't thereThe starlight is bright as i go on my wayAnd the trees softly whisper what they want to sayThe grass is so green as it waves in the lightAnd the rivers currents reflect sparkly and brightIt splashes it's secrets as it flows down the streamAnd the moon hears them from its traveling moonbeamsMy bare feet take me onto the sandI look out to the sea where there is no landThe small twisting river meets the big mighty seaAs i stand there they start to pound angrilyThe trees are long gone and the river is blackTheres so much ceme
ForeverNothing really lasts foreverNo matter how much you wish it wouldTime is something you can't tetherBut i bet you'd stop it if you couldI bet you wish it would slow downMaybe take a slower paceInstead it moves like its hell boundTime comes in first in every raceForever is just wishful thinkingA dream that never will come trueAnd yet its forever that im seekingI want to spend forever with you
Can't Let GoLet it all just wash awayThe shame, hate,fear, and painHow easy it is to just let goYeah right,like they would knowI can never let go of the painIf i do my heart will be slainThe pain lets my know im still aliveOtherwise i'd think i had diedMy hate is only directed at meSo why can't they just leave it be?Its myself i hate, not my friendsI'll be damning my soul right to the endAs for the fear, i can live with thatIts not like im scared of a little catI just know whens the right time to runHow bout before someone pulls a gun?The shame, oh the shame,it breaks me downI just hide it with a smile, not a frownIm a
All the dreamsAll the dreams i haveWhere you stand by my sideAre nothing when your hereWhen its real, not a lieAnd all my fragile hopesThat we might be good friendsBlossom and grow largerWhen i see you againAnd all the foolish thoughtsThat pop up when your aroundGrow ten times louderTill they're the only soundInstead of silly dreamsTheres something i want to doJust a simple little requestI just want to sit besides you
Please Don'tMy eyes are dampBut i will not cryIm not in painSuch a simple lieI tried to stop itIts not worth my heartI thought i learned thisGuess im not smartIts simple reallyI've done it beforeI shouldn't get crushesIt makes my heart soreI tried to ignore itA horrible planI tried to deny itA pitiful shamTwice in one yearHow foolish of meI fell for it twicePlease leave me beNo wonder i hateMaking new friendsSomething happensAnd im alone in the endBut no matterIm fine all aloneIm not meant to have someoneIm good on my ownSo just go awayPlease dont be my friendSince no matter whatYou'll leave i
Bidding its timeI hate having crushes,though its odd to sayAs far as i can see, it just doesn't payFantasies and wishful thinkingSilly,stupid, painful dreamingI will admit that i do have a crushBut if you ask i'll lie, keep it hush hushAss having a crush does is bring me painI cannot win, theres nothing to gainIts time to grow up, no more stupid wishesNo more dreaming about hugs and kissesThat is over, that part of me has diedAnd if theres any left it better run and hideAs far as you know i dont have a crushIt will rid me wold of annoying fussAnd yet, somewhere, in the back of my mindThe foolish part waits,its just bidding its t
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